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HUMAN BEING | BEING HUMAN

HUMAN BEING | BEING HUMAN

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I’m changing a lot.


I can barely keep up with myself. The more I learn, the more I realize how much more I have to learn. The more I grow, the more I realize how much hungrier I am to grow.


I find myself tripped up because even with all of this growing, I’ll try to “play on an old level”, which is what I call it when I revert back to a habit or pattern from my past self. For example, growing up I always loved to play dress up and I became super passionate about fashion design. From age 5 to 23, I collected as many clothes, shoes, and accessories as my closets would allow. In 2011, I backpacked for three months through Europe and could only carry what was on my back. I realized then that I am not what I wear, that no outfit will ever give me the confidence that truly loving myself will, and that the best accessories were my smile and personality.


Knowing that lesson, as I grow forward and transition into new levels of being, my ego can feel insecure. It will play the comparison game and I’ll get swept backwards onto that old level of searching for fulfillment through material goods. What I’m really craving is love, inspiration, and connection but somehow I’ll end up searching for it in stores. It feels familiar, it feels comfortable, but nothing really “fits”. Not just physically, though, my body has completely changed. But I realize that all of these brands are trying to tell me who I am and represent their vision through me and as much as I try to find myself through their vision, I don’t see it. I realize now, it’s not a game my soul is meant to play. My soul has evolved.


Don’t get me wrong; I love feeling, being, and looking radiant. I am inspired by wearable art and I am the first to complement someone’s style. I also understand that my definition of self has changed and I am not going to find myself in a store. I am only going to manifest items that express or complement my aura.


And what is my aura?


You will know my aura, not by what I wear, or how I look but how you feel when you’re around me. You will feel my aura through the boldness in my spirit. You will hear my aura through the clarity in my voice. You will see my aura in my 300watt smile.


And together, we will play on another level called BEING HUMAN and let me say, it’s the best one I’ve [re]discovered yet.


#‎noparking #‎yearofcourage #‎alifetothemax


Aura captured by: Regina Felice Garcia Photography <3

AN UNDENIABLE YES

You may have known me once, or thought you knew me, you may know me now or think you do.

But the truth is, I change everyday. I can barely keep up with who I am and what I want and I’ll bet you change too. Of course there are things about each of us that are constant, much of which is DNA and more of which is deeper, value-driven, culture-driven, stemming from a place of purpose, imbedded in our souls.

This purpose presents itself in moments of inspiration, in acts of kindness and in choices no one understands but you.

Last night I stumbled upon one of those moments as I was skimming through an older journal. I always keep a journal and it amazes me to look back and transport myself to those moments. Just like any good book, you can become totally encapsulated.

My thoughts start from middle school with such simple problems, “who do I like this week?” “what did I do to get in trouble again?” to post-graduate thoughts “what do I want to do with my life?” “what kind of impact do I want to make on Earth?”.

This particular piece was written during an Activist workshop about self-care, where I was asked to write from my soul.

To take a deeper look into the person I continue to be. Read on.

11/29/12
 
What is the sum of our existence on earth? How can we heal this place? Where am I, where have I been, who was I then?
 
Shed identity, shed this life, shed all. This life could’ve been anyone’s, this body, mind and spirit anything, but in this life, it’s mine.

What discoveries have I unveiled? Inventions, inspiration, moments of undeniable brilliance. My soul feels so pure and yet I know my deep inner wisdom is being accessed more and more each day. I often wonder who I’ve been and where I have gone, I know the answers are inside of me, with each life experience they become unlocked.
 
In moments of darkness I had light. In moments of development, challenge and disbelief I found hope. A strong sense of self, an energetic purity, sense of imagination, curiosity and wonder that has gone beyond my wildest dreams.
 
And in this sudden exploration of voice and fury where I am delving into my innermost being, I ask myself, what will be my greatest gift in this life? The love and peace I feel now, will it last? The fire lit inside, will it ever be defused? When there’s courage needed, will it be available? Will I recognize it in me as I do in others? Will I continue to grow and be all that I aspire to? The dreams that I have in my days, will they be realized?
 
The answer within me to all is an undeniable yes. One that pumps my heart and sends each beat into my lungs, my voice, my words, my vision, my thoughts, my feelings, and everything I am. My innermost wisdom tells me, do not worry, for worries belong in the future, regrets in the past.
 
My soul tells me, use your laser focus in your work, clear your world of obstacles, embrace challenges, be open to love and light and laughter. Experience joy, don’t run from it. If the divine gives it to you, give it to others and be your best here now, in this moment and the next.
 
In this life and beyond, let your soul dance, be free and understand that there are not always answers.
 
It just is.

Love,
 
Your Soul.