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THE PAIN OF BECOMING: NO MUD. NO LOTUS.

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I’m struggling right now. Going through yet another stage of my evolutionary journey.

I believe in intentional #lifedesign and my life has been largely designed for a specific being who at a young age learned that in order to receive love she needed to “do great things”. As she grew, she continued to be rewarded for her performance. She developed leadership and communication skills and strived to be extraordinary. Unconsciously seeking attention and love by proving her worth. Her enoughness.

Over the last ten years that seeking has become a spiritual awakening and the last two years, an around the world adventure of the heart. On that journey, she discovered a very simple but powerful truth, that she was born worthy. Born enough. Just like water can’t be any wetter. She couldn’t be more worthy or more enough.

Imagine her surprise 🤷🏻‍♀️. The waves of impact on her unconscious tendencies 🌀. But while the insight is instantaneous, the deconditioning is a process.

The gravity is real. We live in a society that also tends to value doing > being. Striving + achieving > reflecting + becoming. Yang > yin. Outer work > inner work. The pursuit of power over the pursuit of love and peace.

While I am all for standing in our power and taking action and I recognize the over-commercialization of love and peace, I also see a dire need for REBALANCING.

From the inside out. Many of us call for world peace and transformation but that requires inner peace and transformation. We are always limited and unlimited by our consciousness. This is an inside job.

I see very clearly that I have a role in this change. I feel called to take part in teaching, creating, repairing, and healing. But for now, I’m working on me.

“No mud. No lotus” as Thich Naht Hanh famously said. Lotus flowers are known as symbols of transformation and rebirth because they grow in the mud and learn from the darkness. Slowly but surely, lotus’ use the mud as nutrients to grow and then they miraculously rise above the water, petal by petal, clean and pure. They are revered as one of the most spiritual flowers.

And while part of me feels stuck in the mud and afraid of the world. It is not my path to go hide in a cave, ashram or forest. Swami Yogananda says, “Walking away under the guise of renunciation or non-attachment is the easy path. It shows more spiritual fiber to live a Godly life in the jungle of civilization.” I chose to walk on the earth. With the people. In cities. In the world.

In my Mayan Dreamspell Chart this role is called, a Red Skywalker: the time/space traveller who can jump dimensions to assist in realizing heaven on Earth. They are angelic messengers connected to sky but who walk on Earth.

That said, my message to you is this, wherever you are on your soul’s quest, know that it’s ok. Trust that you are exactly where you need to be in pursuit of your true journey.

The world needs you, imperfect.

As you are.

And whatever needs to happen to support you in your evolution, it’s important. Make it a priority and know that you are guided and protected always.

Have faith divine friends 🙏🏽,

Mud&Lotus
#nomudnolotus #yearofdivinelove #healing #repair #selflove #souljourney

The Shadow Side of Living an Intentional Life

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The Shadow Side of Living an Intentional Life (for me) is this...🌓
- feeling exhausted from all your #innerwork
- seeing your unconscious tendencies for what they are
- owning your projections and stories
- taking radical responsibility for yourself, your feelings, your needs
- no more hiding or spiritual bypassing, being seen 🙈
- inviting in and sitting with all your emotions 🙇🏻‍♀️
- being honest, anxious, lonely, afraid, angry, frustrated, sad, empty
- losing your way and forgetting who you are
- working 3-10x as hard as those who took the prescribed path (not fact checked, just a feeling)
- not having enough time or energy for all the things, ever
- recognizing your limitations and that you're not in control
- constantly forgiving yourself for not being perfect
- being vulnerable, squishy, soft
- practicing love sometimes gracefully, sometimes not
- begging for mercy, surrendering to the One

The list goes on. I write this, not to create a sob story, whine or throw a pity party for myself 🥳 but rather to be real about what’s behind the mask. There’s always more to the story than what we see on social media or even when we meet face to face.

One spiritual teacher said, “if people really knew what the path of truth entailed, they wouldn’t do it”. Because it’s not all roses 🌹, there’s hella thorns. Ego death is a painful process and anyway, for me, it seems to just reassert itself and dress up in new clothes 👗👘👖. And yet as my past love said, “it’s a one way ticket to wholeness, we can take pauses along the way but this is it.”

In Buddhism, dukkha (suffering) is seen as a fundamental part of the monotony of life, it's a given, and yet I also want to paint a full picture and give it up to the great nectar of life 🍑, Divine Love 💗 in all its sweetness. Sometimes it’s hard to see but it’s always there in everything, our pain is our medicine, our triggers are our teachers, our conflicts are our healing. We are complete.

So here I am, human and divine, visible and invisible, beauty and beast, in all my imperfection, all my flaws...trying to make sense of this thing called life 🤷🏻‍♀️.

People say I’m wise but I’m not sure I have a clue...I just keep walking until I come to love my light and my shadow, my mud and my lotus, until perhaps there is no me at all 🌑.

Much love + respect for y’all on the path ✊🏽. It ain’t always easy to live in #truth #yearofdivinelove #shadow #realness #itwasalladream

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LOVE LINES

LOVE LINES ⭕️❌⭕️
I don’t want to cut my love lines
The men I’ve loved in my lifetime

My first love was a fly guy named Freddy 🙋🏻‍♂️
We met at a party and started going steady ❤️
French Portuguese, he had so much depth
Even in college rocked an Om round his neck 🕉
After surviving that heartbreak I fell for Max 🦹🏻‍♂️
We would have tea time before English class 🍵🍵
He showed me the world like a real life Aladdin 🙌🏽
Modern day explorer, his spirit animal, a dragon 🐉
From there I fell for a well-groomed gentleman named Feliciano 🤵🏻🌹
We met in downtown PHX where the season is always Verano ☀️
Spread our wings to the diversity of Oakland 🌳
Rode bikes 🚲 🚲 sailed the seas hand in hand ⛵️ Then set off to explore Southeast Asia 🌏
Met an Aussie named Daniel, I can only describe as Fantasia ✨🤸🏻‍♂️🔮
Lived in a mini van drove up the West coast 🚌
Hiked in Taiwan, Meditated the utmost 🧘🏻‍♂️🧘🏻‍♀️ And now my heart’s set on this earthchild JJ 👨🏾🌿
When I’m with him I feel like the luckiest laday 🥰
First date set in the green jungle of Thailand 🇹🇭 Yosemite, NOLA, I’m so lit up he’s my man 💋

Love lines crisscrossing my heart so wildly
Know God’s watching over cuz it never loves mildly
Some people say you can’t be friends with your ❌’s
But cutting people out is only for T-Rex’s 🏃🏾‍♂️🦖 😝Thank you to all those who have loved me 🙏🏽
Especially the one who watches above me 😇

Don’t cut your love lines or burn bridges if you don’t have to
Forgiveness and healing will flood that love right back to you 🌊💞🌊
#lovelines #lovepoem #forgiveness #healing #partners #heartners 💌 #lovers #yearofdivinelove 📸 @jaspher.diz @pradofarms 🌿 #phillipines

ODE TO OAKLAND

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THERE’S NO PLACE LIKE HOME...ODE TO OAKLAND.

After 2.5 years on the road less traveled, this free bird is ready to rest her wings. I've been in deep prayer for a sacred space, a sanctuary to come home to and those prayers have been answered!!!

It's a freaking MIRACLE. I'm OVERJOYED, GRATEFUL, BLESSED to have met Darrell Jones III, a fellow seeker on the path, and to be moving into his ZenDen Sanctuary in Oakland while he continues to journey.

What a cathartic moment. After all my seeking, exploring 10 countries, staying in over 150 places, I don’t need to travel anymore (though I still will some!) because I found the place I was looking for…home.

Coming back, I now know that home isn’t a single physical space, it’s an eternal place in the heart. The bridge between worlds - the cathedral of the soul.

And over the past two years, I’ve been going through a purification process which has been fucking bruta-ful (beautiful + brutal) to say the least.

But no mud no lotus. No rose without thorn.

And now I am experiencing so much grace, feeling how good it is to finally come home ❤

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WHY OAKLAND, CALIFORNIA?

Why the Bay Area? It’s soooo expensive, isn’t it? Haha, well short answer, yes! But why?

Because people want to be here. Because despite it’s high cost of living and fast pace of life, people feel a deep sense of belonging.

Though it’s not perfect by any means, this is a place that celebrates difference. Though much of the culture is threatened by gentrification, displacement, and mental/emotional illness, it is also ripe with diversity, creativity, and vibrance.

Oakland is a place of progress that inspires me. It’s a place where people are marching daily. It's a place with soul.

And the symbolism of the 🌳 Mighty Oak 🌳 is no mistake. The Oak tree is one of the most beloved trees in the world, and with good reason. It's a symbol of strength, morale, resistance and knowledge. The oak is considered a cosmic storehouse of wisdom embodied in its towering strength.

With that, I got a 2 bedroom spot in the heart of the city near Lake Merritt with LOTS OF SPACE. So come through! And if you live in the YAY AREA, expect an invite for a House Warming and future gatherings at the “ZenDen Lotus Pad” soon.

Beyond that, I would love to see you, reconnect with you and be a part of this community again.

Thank you for all of your support. It's so good to be home!

With gratitude,
Kelsey Lotus Wong

#cominghome #heroinesjourney #oakland #oaklandish #thatlakelife#yearofdivinelove

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BE VIGILANT WITH YOUR VIBRATION

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Be Vigilant with Your Vibration 🙏🏽.


The latest pearl of wisdom 🐚 that Soul Sister, Goddess, and Guide, SheShe 💃🏽 shared with me, “You must be vigilant with your vibration”. As women we are taught to “be nice” and “play well with others” and while generally I am and I do, I also believe in setting clear boundaries. It’s something I’ve needed to learn over time and I’m still learning.

The more aware I become, the more I see the lack of consent in our culture. Not just when it gets physical #metoo but as women and human beings we often allow too many things to happen that we didn’t ask for or consent to.

I’m all about learning to let go and not sweat the small stuff but that small stuff adds up. Hurt people hurt people and blessed people bless people. Now we’ve all been hurt and have received blessings too. It’s neither fixed nor a label, but we need to be radically responsible for ourselves, our bodies, our emotions, our needs, and our energy.

We also need practical tools for healing. My practice is forgiveness work. I’ve been doing it for 10 years. It’s a universal tool that works wonders and I’ll be using it the rest of my life. Forgiveness work isn’t just for someone else, it’s for you to clean house & clear internally. That followed by blessings and gratitude turns a contraction into a gift and hurt into healing 💞. Full circle. Alchemy.

People often think I’m so positive and happy but yo I’m hella sensitive and I have my fair share of negativity to work through. Sometimes this inner work feels like sucking poison out of your heart or womb...like pricking your finger with a rose thorn. It hurts 🥀.

So as Shereen shared, be vigilant with your vibration. Do the work to take care of you. And when all else fails, rather than be hard, be soft on yourself. Be kind. Be true.

Love & blessings to all beings ✨.

With gratitude,

Lotus

#heroinesjourney #soulwisdom#sisterhood 👯‍♀️ #vigilance #vibration #forgiveness #selfcare #selflove#hurt #healing #blessings #boundaries#womyn #consent #gratitude#yearofdivinelove 🌹

Heart Hurts Today

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My heart hurts so much today.
For me. For others. For the world we live in.
I feel the weight of a lot of pain and suffering.
It’s hard to know what is mine, what is others, and what’s all of ours.

My ego wants to direct it towards someone or something and to get rid of it.
To point and shoot. To flush it out.
But my intuition tells me it’s something more, something beyond me.

Pain and suffering is part of being human. Our ability to feel is remarkable. But many of us hide our unpleasant emotions and do our best to hold it together when deep down we really just want to be honest, to be held, to let it all out.

Being back in a city, I am noticing how many daily interactions can feel shallow. How people are going about their business focused on themselves. Trying really hard to hustle, to make it, to survive. And who can blame them? The game ain’t easy!

I still Believe Life is beautiful. But I also see it can be hard. People are going through a lot. And it’s difficult to tell from the surface of things. Social media and half smiles mask the pain.

I guess what I’m saying is - what the hell is going on? Why is there space for light and not for shadow? Time and time again, stories of heroes, heroines, and the power of the human spirit show that it is our shadows that lead to our salvation, our suffering that leads to our freedom, our wholehearted realness that leads us back home.

Yet it’s easy to forget. It’s easy to get lost. It’s easy to feel alone.

So in this moment, my heart goes out to all those in pain, experiencing loss, working through grief, anger, frustration etc. Even if it’s just 1% sadness or suffering, that’s worth being acknowledged in my book.

I want you to know whether I know you deeply or not at all, whether we’ve spoken once or a million times...strangers, friends, family...I love you, I hear you, I feel you. My heart is your heart. Your story is my story. This is all temporary. We’ll get through this together.

Sending love, peace, compassion, and blessings...I see you 👁🙏🏽♥️.

#yearofdivinelove