There is peaceful. There is wild. I am both at the same time.
I had doubts, resistance, and endless excuses for not joining the Shamanic Shakti & Tantrika Arts Retreat with Anna Maria and Mira Dakini in Bali. The timing, the price, the work I needed to do, this, that, and the other.
When I shared my concerns, Anna Maria listened to each one so patiently.
Rather than spend time addressing each, she took a deep inhale and said “I hear you.” Then she asked, “what is your intention, what is desire?”
“My desire is to reconnect with my body, my energy, and my spirit. To come into a State of Grace. To recover and reawaken the SHAKTI (Divine Feminine) within me.”
And then I added, “I have never been on a women’s retreat.”
She smiled radiantly and with her all knowing mystic eyes, she peered into the ancient moonlit caves of mine. In that moment, it was as if she read my soul’s story containing the answers to my future. Then she replied, and I can’t remember if it was words or without but I felt it, “When you’re ready, I’ll be there.”
A few weeks out and I still hadn’t committed. My mind, like usual, was running the various scenarios over and over again, unable to come to a decision.
Then in a dream, a vision came to me.
I saw Anna Maria aboard a massive wooden ship with white sails headed towards an uncharted island. Like a sorceress, she wielded a staff of pure white light. Like a goddess, her white dress billowed as the wind blew fiercely. Like a warrior, her eyes unbreakable, determined, full speed ahead.
Then like magic, a dozen other women in all white appeared. I heard the soothing sounds of the Harmonium begin, followed by the embodied voices of these Shakti’s at sea. And then, and then! Just on the other side of Anna Maria, I saw her. I saw a woman that looked familiar but who I had never seen before. I saw a woman who was centered, clear, and true. I felt a spirit that was ready for anything. I heard the heartbeat of a whole, pure, indestructible...ME.
It became crystal clear, “You’re going.”
WELCOME TO THE SHIP!
What unfolded on this collective Goddessey is sacred and far more than I could ever express in words. Photos will only scratch the surface but I do want to honor, celebrate and show the world what these women are made of.
The Shakti Embodiment Ship went full force into the wild darkness of the collective womb.
Together...WE SANG, WE DANCE, WE SHOOK.
WE SCREAMED, WE LAUGHED, WE CRIED.
WE STORMED. WE BATTLED. WE CAME ALIVE.
WE HELD. WE RECEIVED. WE SURRENDERED.
WE RELEASED. WE MANIFESTED. WE TRANSFORMED.
WE CELEBRATED. WE HEALED. WE REMEMBERED.
WE CAME HOME TO OUR BODIES.
WE CAME HOME TO SISTERHOOD.
WE CAME HOME TO MAMMA EARTH.
WE CAME HOME TO SPIRIT.
This experience made me feel Activated. Liberated. Reborn.
I had never gone this deep with all women before.
I hadn’t realized how much of the time I am “performing”
I hadn’t realized how much work it is to “keep it together”
I hadn’t realized how little I was breathing until I could finally Exhale
I found peaceful
I found wild
I found parts of me I had lost years and maybe lifetimes ago
And while this wasn’t the end all be all and there will always be more to discover, the Shakti Embodiment Ship was “MAHA MASSIVE” as Anna Maria likes to say.
So thank you to all the YINspiring Shakti’s aboard this epic voyage of rediscovery and thank you to our brave leaders and their infinite hearts guiding the way, Anna Maria and Mira Dakini. We thank you, we love you, we are free!
With gratitude & grace,
SEE COMPLETE PHOTO ALBUM captured by Shivani Ma, Caitlin Beaver, and Raphaella Caflers.
::ESSENCE OF SHAKTI:: Sweden, August 14th-19th
::EARTH PRIESTESS TRAINING:: Bali, Indonesia, November 17th-30th
P.S. be sure to check out Mira's Shakti Temple Yoga - yoga designed for honoring women's bodies - one of my favorite daily rituals of the whole retreat!