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I’m changing a lot.

I can barely keep up with myself. The more I learn, the more I realize how much more I have to learn. The more I grow, the more I realize how much hungrier I am to grow.

I find myself tripped up because even with all of this growing, I’ll try to “play on an old level”, which is what I call it when I revert back to a habit or pattern from my past self. For example, growing up I always loved to play dress up and I became super passionate about fashion design. From age 5 to 23, I collected as many clothes, shoes, and accessories as my closets would allow. In 2011, I backpacked for three months through Europe and could only carry what was on my back. I realized then that I am not what I wear, that no outfit will ever give me the confidence that truly loving myself will, and that the best accessories were my smile and personality.

Knowing that lesson, as I grow forward and transition into new levels of being, my ego can feel insecure. It will play the comparison game and I’ll get swept backwards onto that old level of searching for fulfillment through material goods. What I’m really craving is love, inspiration, and connection but somehow I’ll end up searching for it in stores. It feels familiar, it feels comfortable, but nothing really “fits”. Not just physically, though, my body has completely changed. But I realize that all of these brands are trying to tell me who I am and represent their vision through me and as much as I try to find myself through their vision, I don’t see it. I realize now, it’s not a game my soul is meant to play. My soul has evolved.

Don’t get me wrong; I love feeling, being, and looking radiant. I am inspired by wearable art and I am the first to complement someone’s style. I also understand that my definition of self has changed and I am not going to find myself in a store. I am only going to manifest items that express or complement my aura.

And what is my aura?

You will know my aura, not by what I wear, or how I look but how you feel when you’re around me. You will feel my aura through the boldness in my spirit. You will hear my aura through the clarity in my voice. You will see my aura in my 300watt smile.

And together, we will play on another level called BEING HUMAN and let me say, it’s the best one I’ve [re]discovered yet.

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Aura captured by: Regina Felice Garcia Photography <3