“Nature loves courage. You make the commitment and nature will respond to that commitment by removing impossible obstacles. Dream the impossible dream and the world will not grind you under, it will lift you up. This is the trick. This is what all these teachers and philosophers who really counted, who really touched the alchemical gold, this is what they understood. This is the shamanic dance in the waterfall. This is how magic is done. By hurling yourself into the abyss and discovering it's a feather bed.”
— Terence McKenna
Your dearest dream is coming true.
What is your dream? What is your greatest wish? What is real and true for you?
My dream is to travel the inner & outer worlds.
- To step into my soul’s path
- To surrender myself into a realm beyond prescribed reality
- To reach past the edges of the dualistic mind trap
- To break free from the matrix and escape the insanity loop
- To breathe art into my roots and roots into my art
- To merge mud with lotus, a metamorphosis, born anew
A year ago I took an existential gamble. I risked leaving a good life for an unknown but potentially remarkable one. I tested out a belief that home isn’t dependent on a person, place or thing but is a quality of inner peace and an energy that moves through you. I named it "Year of Lotus" and intended to live in a state of grace where divinity, purpose, and intention meet. I threw my life into the deep blue ocean and allowed spirit to carry me.
I set myself free and in doing so left a good heartner, home, job, and community.
A year later, I wonder if any of it was ever really “mine” to begin with. This year I’ve learned that nothing really belongs to me and that there’s nothing but universal love that I belong to. Everything is temporary, we’re wandering travelers just passing through. This was a conscious choice and I’d choose it all again but even though I accept that nothing belongs to me, I see the sun setting on the life I had and I feel sadness. It’s still a loss.
I try my old life back on and though the faces and places are familiar, they don’t feel quite like they used to. A dear friend once said, “The only consistent thing about me is how inconsistent I am”. Wow does that ring true.
As I make my way in the world, I feel the energy of life move and I must move with it. Rather than hold on to the rocks of a rushing river, I peel back my finger tips one by one, it can be scary but I somehow trust and let go. People wonder how to travel full-time and stay grounded amidst a life in motion. My feeling is that though the scenes change, my heart is always home, and though I go through many ups and downs, I feel the backdrop of consciousness completely still.
So what dearest dream is coming true?
I’ve dreamed of being free with peace in my heart knowing all of those I love are okay.
And this time I’ve come back “home” to see that it's not just me that’s moving but that life and the ripples around me have moved on too. I see clearly that though life throws thunder and hailstorms, it’s all going to be okay. I’m not needed anymore.
So with that I say, follow what moves within you. Summon your courageous heart. Do what you need to do.
When there is no obligation, no story, no “you have to” everything becomes a conscious choice from a place of emotional freedom. A dream come true.